so so so... I don't really have anything to say, but that's never really stopped me before. this seems to be like some secret club where we tell each other what we're really thinking but in the real world just smile, wink, and offer a secret handshake (how does it go btw? two middle fingers together, pinkies rubbing each other's palms? shoot, i always forget the blogger shake!).
well, i guess i suppose i could start by presenting the idea, the incredibly lame idea, that the reason i haven't posted in so long is because i went and got myself a girlfriend. it is very similar to the reason that i haven't spent as much time with my friends lately, or with God for that matter. the thing is, once you get a girlfriend, provided that she is a half-decent one, that you seem to only want to spend time with her. let's explore the thought processes, "i could call up dave to see if he wants to catch a movie, OR i could go over to my girlfriends and sit next to her while we watch a movie" and no offense to Dave, i've cuddled up next to him during the occasional movie as well, but for some reason it just isn't the same. What IS it about girls. Once you find one that wouldn't mind cuddling back now and then - she takes over your friggen mind! have any of you ever seen My Fair Lady? let me sing one of my favorite songs for you. imagine, if you will, the voice of Henry Higgins:
Well after all, Pickering, I'm an ordinary man,
Who desires nothing more than an ordinary chance,
to live exactly as he likes, and do precisely what he wants...
An average man am I, of no eccentric whim,
Who likes to live his life, free of strife,
doing whatever he thinks is best, for him,
Well... just an ordinary man...
BUT, Let a woman in your life and your serenity is through,
she'll redecorate your home, from the cellar to the dome,
and then go on to the enthralling fun of overhauling you...
Let a woman in your life, and you're up against a wall,
make a plan and you will find,
that she has something else in mind,
and so rather than do either you do something else
that neither likes at all You want to talk of Keats and Milton,
she only wants to talk of love,
You go to see a play or ballet, and spend it searching
for her glove, Let a woman in your life
and you invite eternal strife,
Let them buy their wedding bands for those anxious little hands...
I'd be equally as willing for a dentist to be drilling
than to ever let a woman in my life, I'm a very gentle man,
even tempered and good natured
who you never hear complain,
Who has the milk of human kindness
by the quart in every vein,
A patient man am I, down to my fingertips,
the sort who never could, ever would,
let an insulting remark escape his lips
Very gentle man...
But, Let a woman in your life,
and patience hasn't got a chance,
she will beg you for advice, your reply will be concise,
and she will listen very nicely, and then go out
and do exactly what she wants!!!
You are a man of grace and polish,
who never spoke above a hush,
all at once you're using language that would make
a sailor blush, Let a woman in your life,
and you're plunging in a knife,
Let the others of my sex, tie the knot around their necks,
I prefer a new edition of the Spanish Inquisition
than to ever let a woman in my life I'm a quiet living man,
who prefers to spend the evening in the silence of his room,
who likes an atmosphere as restful as
an undiscovered tomb,
A pensive man am I, of philosophical joys,
who likes to meditate, contemplate,
far for humanities mad inhuman noise,
Quiet living man....
But, let a woman in your life, and your sabbatical is through,
in a line that never ends comes an army of her friends,
come to jabber and to chatter
and to tell her what the matter is with YOU!,
she'll have a booming boisterous family,
who will descend on you en mass,
she'll have a large wagnarian mother,
with a voice that shatters glass,
Let a woman in your life,
Let a woman in your life,
Let a woman in your life I shall never let a woman in my life.
words to live by, don't you think? they really do take over your life anyways. when i'm not with her, i wish i was with her, but sometimes when i am with her i wonder if we have anything in common at all. I suppose in the end, it's at least an excercise in learning about the extent of my own selfishness. there's nothing like having to reconcile the way you spend the majority of your free time with someone else's, to make you see how unhappy you are when you don't get to do exactly what you want. see, say i want to go to a movie. without anna, it goes like this:
Dave, do you want to see a movie? No? okay, i'll ask josh if he wants to come>
but now with Anna:
Anna, do you want to see a movie? No? okay, i'll ask ashl.. um.. what i mean to say is what would you like to do instead?
and the bigger problem is that even when she doesn't mind me going to the movie with Ashley (and i enjoy watching movies with ashley, even though she doesn't cuddle as much) i'll spend the whole movie wishing i WAS doing something with Anna instead. isn't that sick!?!
i guess i've rambled on for enough now. does anyone have any advice with dealing with this problem? have i even laid out a coherant problem? let me see... How do i not be selfish and still enjoy myself when i'm with anna? and: How do i not be lame all the time and still date anna? and finally: is it worth it to move to africa, embrace solitude, and never worry about the problem again?
thanks for listening,
Peter out
